Now

I'm released from you.
No longer do I feel trapped inside, no longer do I have to worry.
No longer do I feel afraid, no longer do I need to think.
No longer I have to be lied to, no longer do I have to be scared.
No longer do I have to feel sad, no longer do I have to be upset.

No restrictions, everything done without thinking twice.
I'm a free girl :) I'm glad.

Relationships? The only relationship problem I have is with Him. I just can't get enough, forever separated with my sins. haha I'm not a holy person, I just purely love my God so much that I just want to have a pure relationship with Him. He has done so much, my best friend, my Father. Not cause of the religion, but because I have truly experienced Him and I really, really am thankful.

People treat me as a sister. I'm happy. This way, they won't leave me so easily. Others walk in and out. Those who love me without intentions will stay so much longer. Love is purer. But I get discouraged oh so easily. I'm stubborn. If you don't care anymore, you care less, I'm sorry, I wont fight for your attention. Unless, you are as important as God is to me.

I'm not emo anymore, though I may zone out at times. One door closes and another opens. This time, the door opened to me is so much wider. :) I'm filled, with emptiness but with joy as well. Step by step he said. No rush. Just let everything grow naturally. :)

-Carmen